For the longest time, I viewed God as a disciplinarian. Some far-off God with His arms folded and a scorn upon His face every time I messed up. As I’ve come to truly seek Him and know Him intimately for myself, I see that this is so far from the truth. I could go on and on about His mercy, which triumphs over judgment. About His kindness that leads to true repentance. About how He’s given me His mind and His heart, and new desires that truly align with His heart. However, all I know is that my life has been transformed, and I’m never looking back.
These past couple of years, He’s teaching me full & true surrender, and I realize that He’s been showing me so many dimensions of Himself, and one of these is how He truly is the nearest, dearest Friend. The truest friend. The friend who sticks closer than a brother. Someone who would not only be willing to lay their life down for me, but actually did. Jesus — THE lover of my soul and the One my heart longs for.
Several months ago, He ministered to me Spirit to spirit. I could sense the Lord whisper in His gentle, kind, soft and still voice: I’m not keeping you at arm’s length. You’re keeping Me at arm’s length. Learn to see Me rightly. There is no separation when you’re in Christ. And sure enough, He’s been teaching me and guiding me, His hand holding mine tightly. I’m learning that I can trust Him fully, because He is who He says He is, and He keeps His word. And now that I’ve come home, I know that He won’t ever let me go. Nothing could ever separate me from the love of God, through Christ Jesus.
So here’s a cover of a song that’s dear to me (please excuse the poor sound quality of the recording and my voice). He’s still showing me just how deep His friendship is, how sweet His communion is, and how everything has changed now that I’m walking with Him moment by moment, day by day.
“Friend” by Jonathan Ogden captures what He’s been planting deep into my heart this season, now and forevermore.
Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine :’]
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